A Thousand Years.

I will be brave, I will not let anything take away what is standing in front of me, I will love you for a thousand years and love you more a thousand more.

I wanted to reply but i couldnt. You and I both know why.

I love you baby.

I have loved you, i am loving you and i will love you even more tomorrow.

The thick and thin that we've gone through brought us closer to each other even more in this 15 months. So much more to face in the future, so much more to learn. So much more growing up to do, and im glad im doing it with you.

See you tomorrow. :)

Open book for what?!

Had my first ever open book test in Year 3 for the I/O Psychology.

Experience: Crazy.

I cant believe i spent so much time studying for it, making outlines with page number for easy reference and THEN! Suddenly before exam i had a panic attack and then later the paper was matha-efing crazily loooong. 4 essays with sub questions for each to be completed in 3 hours is TOTALLY NOT ENOUGH. =(( How? End up crapping, no essay structure, some short some long. And i didnt answer two parts of the paper. =((((

So much for external locus of control, im sorta attributing the bad LUCK to my lucky necklace which i forgot to wear today! hahahaar. Laugh la laugh la. But seriously, im damn blooody emo about this paper larrrrrr~~~! fark.

I just hope for a pass. Really! That is all i ask for. Thank you.

Third Year.

I got a taste of what 3rd year is like since September!

Busy like a bumble bee!

Surprisingly, i love this feeling.

Moving forward everyday.

Everyday theres something waiting for me to accomplish.

Finals is starting this saturday!

Just keep swimming just keep swimming just keep swimming swimming swimming~

Passion.

People always say, "if you love what you do, it doesnt feel like work". Today i saw with my eyes a very good example of passion.

My brother graduated a while back and yesterday was his convocation. Of course being chinese and kiasu and all, the Cheongs must go take a family photo with the bro bro holding the scroll, wearing the academic dress. The place we went for the studio photo taken is a shop that i always pass by but paid little attention to. Frankly, whenever i walk pass it, i walk super fast, as the shop is old looking, and with many foreign workers inside usually. I always thought it was a printing shop. ==". Im so amazed by my ignorance. I grew up in that area and i passed by the shop everyday after school for 3 years.

So anyways, it was the first time i took photos in a studio! It was rather exciting. Before our turn, the photographer, a lady, was taking passport photos for a toddler. She was so professional, instructing the mother to straighten the child's shirt, and the father to call the child's name to get her attention. She even got a toy to get the child's attention.

When it was our turn, she did the same. Tidying up my bro bro's gown, the cap, teaching him how to hold the scroll, asking him to tilt his head, step frontwards, step backwards, smile, wet his lips, pose like this, knees bent. I thought wow, shes so particular with an individual photo, maybe when its the family's turn, she will be less fussy. But nooooo, she did the same when it was our turn! She fussed over everybody's appearance. The mumma, the daddee, the brobro and me! She will not snap a photo until every finest detail is in place, until everything is perfecto!

It really inspired me to see her work like that. The way she worked gave me a view of how enjoyable a job can be if you have the passion for it. Mind you, she was so determine to make the bro bro pose in a way that she thinks will be nice, even though the bro took a long time to "master" that pose. haha. And throughout the photo shooting session, she was chit chatty, talking to us making us feel comfortable and lightning the mood. And her jokes were quite funny. You guessed it, when we laugh she snapped away. She even made mumma smiled when taking pictures! Kudos to her. ;)

She inspired me to learn and love what im doing.
Someday, when i am lost in whatever i do, i hope i will still remember this lady.

A lady who is so passionate about her job.

Bliss.

Today is an awesome day. Why?

Because i slacked and did NOTHING. Absolutely nothing!

And i napped long enough to start repaying my sleep debt. Had a bad dream thou!

The door bell woken me up, i knew Bii came home. =))

When i open the door, i found 3 plastic bags hanging at the gate. Sushi, Chatime, Snowflake.

Awwwwww. Reminds me of what she did N years ago. So sweet!

Yummy dinner, Awesome dessert.

I should start doing my assignments yes? Only 3 more to go and then finals and im DONE with this sem.

Tata. =))

Too Many Blogs.

I think i have too many blogs. One public-random one like this, one hidden like the one only Bii has access to. I have deleted blogs, recreate new blogs, privatized blogs, and make blogs public over and over. For now, imma just stick to these two. This public-random one, and the private hidden one. Now, starting today, i shall blog here most of the time, and blog private lovey dovey stuff in the other one! YES! this is my decision. Must stick to it Cheryl Cheong. And er, blog more jsut so i can read back nx time.

AGAIN, I think i should start blogging again. Sigh, here i go again, trying to make myself start blogging again. Tralalalala. Who else is still visiting this place here? Hello~~?

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I am in my THIRD year now.

Which means, this time nx year, i will be/should be graduating ard.

This time nx year, i will be/should be searching for a job and start contributing to the society (most prolly to pay off my education loan).

So far, this semester was a roller coaster. Crazy shit busy. Just when its starting to slow down after midterms, here we go again rushing for 4 assignments!! Guess what? Four more freaking weeks and im done with this sem! And then HELLOW CHRISTMAS! Hahaha. Im always a big fan of Christmas. I love the red and greens, the white, silver and gold. The heart warming christmas carols. Ahhhhh~ And the whole holiday mood which is present every year end!

Of course, maybe this year will be different because i will be working on fucking thesis proposal during the holidays!! *prays hard it wouldnt be ruined*

Before i go off to work on my assignments! Heres a video of a pretty christmasy song! Alright, i am an anti-bieber person, but this song is sweet and heart warming. =p

I wanna stand under a mistletoe with you BiiBii!

Tired of living.

Sometimes,

I really think the existence of oneself is really bad karma.

I am so sick of life and shit.

The weird thing is that, i am such a blessed person,

Family, lover, friends.

Why do i still feel this way?

*SIGH*

处女与金牛。

你的处女座性格又发作了

你很需要安全感 这我明白

我一次又一次的告诉你我对你的感觉是不会变的

希望你会把我说过的话记着

但我发现酱是没效的 因为你老是觉得你控制不了未来，控制不了我对你的感觉

总觉得我会离开

不喜欢这种感觉

每次你一觉得某些事不在你控制下 你就会跑到你的泡泡里

心情不好，不想说话，就算讲话了也是一些伤我的话

“为什么要给我爱上你”

“为什么要有爱情”

“爱情真恐怖”

“我很笨”

“我承受不起伤害了”

你又说过你怕你来KL读书的原因是因为我

那是不对的，我知道

但你有没有想过我听了这些话，一直觉得我好像戴了好多好多烦恼给你

最讨厌的是我不能做些什么

难道我该像偶像据里的女主角吗？

很伟大的离开让你做你应该做的决定，五年后才会到你身边？

对不起 我做不到!!

你爱的金牛就是那么的自私

自私到如果可以的话我会很想逼你回来KL念书

可以天天见到你 和你在一起

我恨自己那么的自私

我恨自己很虚假的告诉你你做什么决定我都OK 然后又默默的求神拜佛你会回来

Of hair and a letter to Cheryl.

I cropped my hair!! A bit over shoulder length. Wheeee. Its quite pretty actually! Hee hee! I cut a few weeks back when i went back to Penang with my boy. Wanted to cut it like totally SHORT but then i hesitated at the saloon! Joyce, you are so brave that time! =p But i might cut it shorter and shorter soon!

Heres the pictures! and the only pictures i have of this hair. Oh and i have very cute bangs now!

Dear ten-years-later-Cheryl,

I miss blogging so much. But i just cant seem to make myself blog. I guess you are hating me now because i skipped blogging about so many wonderful things that happened in these few months!

I just completed two weeks of my internship. Cant wait to get it done, get part time jobs and earn money! For shopping of course. I wanna shop so badly. Whatever job you are holding now, i hope you stay determined and persistent Cheryl! You cant be giving up all the time! Well, i hope you already have a stable job actually. Do you? Aiks!!

Please dont hate me. I will will WILL post an entry about our wonderful 21st birthday alright? I swear! When i get the pictures from our Babii. =))

Speaking of Babii! Is she a lawyer now? Or does she own a business? Does Babii still sayang you very much like she sayang me now? In case she bully you more and more, ask her to read this blog. By the time you read this. I would have posted about our Sunway Lagoon trip, our Candle in the Park Date, our Trip to the Beach. Make sure she reads to remind her that she should sayang you more! Alright? Or you can just tickle her. Hahar.

No worries, after this post there will be more updates. =)

Toodles.

Lies.

UPDATE: Just got home from dinner with the Bii and her mom. I totally understand the need of the lies now. =/

White lies are stooopid. Lies being told to save whats considered an abnormal/ unacceptable relationship.

"She has a boyfriend who is in Australia."

*nods*

"Wow"

"How long have you guys been together?"

"Four years."

All these for what? Just to stop them from suspecting.

But with lies, the truth will be harder to come out from its hiding place.

With lies, it would be harder for them to take in and accept the truth.